James Patrick Roehlsville

you complain of my diction

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 02:23:44 GMT

I really can't imagine a more perfect sound than that that emerges from the songs of that old band Television. It was alternately ecstatic and depressing to find them because I knew I would never find a better rock band.

comeback to grand and college!

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 14:03:03 GMT

i think i recorded the best song i have ever recorded yesterday. it's 30 minutes long, and there are very few gaps.
somebody give me their website so i can host my music!

abby! come again! the spicy sauce flows here! no more interruptions of the fun by people and their FUCKING PRECIOUS CARS.
we will bike bike bike bike like the flying voltron knew it would again someday

yarborough fair

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 13:22:59 GMT

i feel like batman these days or some shit. everyone in the world come visit me in my house in poughkeepsie. especially ABIGAIL FUCKING NOYES

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 19:38:58 GMT

getting out of bed has become a straight battle these days. when i was a young lad in junior high, I remember when I would linger in bed in the morning before school. After a while of lying there I would tense up all my muscles until adrenaline ran thru the body and I would leap out of bed, proceeding to complete the various morning tasks at breakneck speed.

I can't do this anymore. And instead of waiting maybe 15-30 minutes in bed before leaping out, I'll spend one or two hours drifting in and out of sleep between when I first awake till when I slowly creep out of bed. It's been a while since I experienced that electic shock of energy at the beginning of my day. And I'm not even twenty years old.

yea synergy

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 09:10:33 GMT

so once again i am connected to that great well of inspiration that at first reared (sp?) itself naturally tho now comes out with induction.

and it feels good and makes me less scared of being scared of college.

it's hard to get reminded of the greatness but when it comes it's (NATURALLY) great.

abby should come and visit me and zachary too

ol snowy

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 09:12:33 GMT

I've had one of the best nights in a good while.
And that's because I am outta that college.
OOh man I am SICK and TIRED of this college shit. ooh that it would end...

the way they livin in maryland is the way i wanna live.

wrote this in a library stall

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 19:08:05 GMT

"It's meta-postmodern" - what the fuck does that mean?!
Don't fetishize the lottery or fuck with TV
That shit is wack like a cane to the forehead
Read Borges or gorge heads with something with more cred than Gore-tex

god is purple

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 01:28:30 GMT

Roll with the punches
Even without pack lunches
Roll with the dive
Even if it's on a stage

Take a bow 'cause you the king of
All that shit now
Listen to my advice
Even if it's not called sage

Undulating like a motherfucking
Eel, shit, on some -
Ill shit, we gettin'
Real lit

Groupwise we tight I'm high as a kite
The word has a bite to it
Just ask me I might do it
Make flight to it

Why the frown Charlie Brown?
Here, put on the crown
'Cause you the king of the bay
Go on and show us the way

'Cause you got the mad science
Leaves other folks cryin'
So let me buy you a drink
I insist, and yo i'm buyin'

Get your face get your ten get your hedrite
Get your dendrites filled with energy
Combine the beats and the words, that's synergy
Listen to my liturgy, eat a philly chee, not affilitated see

With anyone but my SF crew it's true
'Cause I got the irreplaceable sauce
it make you soil your drawers
Just listenin'

To this glistening
Different thing I got sizzling
Make your ear drums ringaling
With the soulful sound I'm bringaling

we got tha jazz

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 15:28:08 GMT

yo. things has been well complicated like.
today i feel energized alive and wide-eyed, ready.

I need to get past my little inner-quarrels about each one of my classes and just DO WORK.

My english teacher is da bomb as kids used to say. He is reshaping my mind inre: race relations, which is good cause I NEED DAT
he is so fuckin smart and pumped up it's almost scary, but what it really is is awe-inspiring.

i want to make films and write music and play drums and sing songs and write poetry, but FIRST I should do all the lame shit that is gonna bite my ass if I don't.

and the CIGS need to be cut WAY back if I'm ever going to kick this resilient cough in its ass

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 05:58:07 GMT

i need that shit just to get by
an i need her like i need my eyes to cry soon
let those spirits out
and when they i come i hope they give me a fright
the ghost of hunter
never been funner
the kind of spirit who glistens
the ghost of hunter
cool cat stunner
visit me hunter

shout chorus:
visit me hunter
haunt me hunter
shoot me hunter
school me hunter
take over my body
take over my body
take over
take over
take me over
take me over
channel you through me
go

5 o'clock in the morning

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 08:39:28 GMT

workin in a coal mine
going down town now
workin in a coal mine
oops about to slip down

things is well good
from cali to texas to the right coast

SAN FRANCISCO I GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 20:23:56 GMT

OH MY GOD
HERE I COME
I'M COMIN' TA GETCHA

Nothing Can Phase Me

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 21:04:08 GMT

You know I don't think I ever listened to Wowee Zowee in full since I first got it from Nick and Aurora, listening to it in their car before that terribly awkward party.

And I have to say I love this! Yay, more songs to add into my itunesin repertoire.

Things is good like totally every day, nomatter whas hapnin because I can totally make my own fun.]

Out of thin air,

yes i'm developing a sprayable kind
waterresistant
shiny
glistening
glassblown
shown
mown the lawn every week

DRUM HOLLOW

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 15:01:02 GMT

i haven't felt this creatively alive in a while.

amaze you craze you but
it can't save you AHHHH

OK -

amaze you

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 07:50:16 GMT

i'm excited about having my life all to myself now. no longer messily tangled around another's affairs. i'm ready. grow. move on. look ahead, not sideways.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 10:17:39 GMT

i had some good honest fun for the first time in a while. met a couple of nice chaps, had some traumatic experiences with the smoke alarm, but then relaxed and had some of that ol fashioned interpersonal interaction, haven't had that in a proper long while. hadn't met someone knew in a while. gotta call people. can't hide away. well, i can, that's the trouble.

i'm not gonna think of anything for the next few days but driving and san francisco. that's where my life's at. gotta reconnect with people i haven't seen for six months. important people. gotta cheer up at that.

goin back to cali

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 03:54:32 GMT

i look forward to returning to the town that loved me so dearly: san francisco town that is. i'm there july 30th for a week and ahalf or so. hopefully it will improve what's been probably the Worst Summer Ever. It shall be grand, I know, because of the company I shall keep, who, being grand chaps themselves should provide a propa grand ol time. somebody else used that word recently round these parts.

part of me wants to get real angry at being stranded here in maryland especially now that the love life/situation is so unclear, so it's like i'm going it alone again, which i don't want. i should be angry at that too but i'm just not one who reacts strongly (or i should say overtly) to changes. i'm not one who fights for things to go my way, i just let outward forces exert themselves in the way they naturally do, and i just adapt. i'm too much a fan of stasis. i guess that's why i'm now in the position i am. i don't take charge of others. not the natural leader type. but you know what fuck it. i'd rather be the inspector than the leader.

"He's like that dude that'll sit back and watch you, play yourself and all that right, and see you sit there and know you lyin', and he'll take you to court after that cuz he the Inspectah"
meff

try to be more assured

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 03:38:49 GMT

I may be able to thrust myself out of the muddy muck I've been buried under this summer. Me and Dave are gonna burn rubber all over this god-damned nation. And I'll hit up san francisco in the process.

If I can get my license in less than a month from now, I can actually help him with the driving!

Festivaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal

love

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 05:34:15 GMT

i love her so much it hurts everynight that I can't do anything about it

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 03:29:53 GMT

so i have four job interviews coming up over the next three days, so maybe i will actually get one! huh!

not doin too bad except for the fact that i haven't seen anyone i know since summer vacation began (besides people in my family)

i hope i can visit boston and san francisco, before this summer becomes boresville

"release the fear"

Thu, 25 May 2006 05:10:05 GMT

i managed to leave vassar, with a head full of nonsense. i don't think i learned a single thing! what's wrong with me?
all of the friendships i made at the beginning of the year tapered off and i don't know why. there's only one relationship that i'm confident about and comfortable with and that is with my girlfriend, so basically i have one transcendent relationship and a bunch of half-started, half-awkward-i-dont-know-how-to-talk-to-anyone-anymore-not-even-you relationships.

i just got mad deja vu
but that's not the point.
ahhhh
my head is now filled with murky sludge water instead of brains.
but at least there's nothing REALLY to worry about, except maybe what my grades will be for this semester. and it's not a personally-motivated worry, it's just the worry of having to listen to dad lecture me if i got a shitty grade.

maybe getting a job or a driver's license will cure me of The Fear, but hey, let's not get our hopes up.

dad tells me every time "Oh you don't need to worry about what you're going to do with your life because you're in college now, and your only concern should be learning about what interests you" but ahh that just makes me silently mad. what the fuck am i going to do in life?? i think that's an extremely important question because MAYBE the answer will inspire me to actually figure out and become invested in the smaller tasks in between now and that mythical destination of "beginning my life's work"

but no i am just supposed to pick out a bunch of classes from a list like "ooh that one sounds like a lark" and hope it changes my life and gives me direction.

what's the point in learning, pretending to be interested, doing all the legwork if you don't know WHY you're doing it except that LEARNING IS GOOD. GET THE FUCK BACK TO WORK. hey! maybe i don't want to have KNOWLEDGE but WISDOM

o i am so in over my head with this rant, my thoughts are all half-finished and adolescent.
i'm just sick of believing that i'm deficient just because my goals/desires/abilities/drives aren't what's prescribed to me.
i'm not a tard i just don't know how to be like all of you! (not actually YOU but you know the editorial, comedian's "you people" sort of "you")

this was so negative but i'm really not all that unhappy, since the school year just ended and my summer is basically a blank page for ME to fill in. it's just that i never felt right about being at that place from the get-go. i never figured out how to live and be comfortable at Vassar. there were so few moments where i could relax and enjoy.

next year could be nice. i'll have my own room, so i won't have to live with a tool anymore! yay!

GOD i hated that tool.

je t'aime

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 05:59:25 GMT

I feel like I am in control.

Love makes me strong.

I would like to thank the friends

that put a fire in my belly.

i should be writing a paper

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 23:46:24 GMT

This is weird because a lot of mine are similar to Nick's

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street name)
Sparky Raymond

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy)
Ernest Chocolate
(I realized I don't have a favorite)

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your last name)
J Ro

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal, favorite color)
Squirrel Blue

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Patrick Washington

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Roemorarc

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Kcirtap Romah

8. PORN STAR NAME: (middle name, father's middle initial, street you grew up on)
Patrick S. Circus
(I grew up on several streets)

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, an automoblie you have)
The Blue Civic
( i don't own an automobile)

10. JEWISH NAME:(first 3 letters of your full first name-RI, favorite color-Stein,Berg,or enthal)
Jamri Blueberg

11. GHETTO NAME: (First two letters of your first name + -Shawn/Quan/Ron/Quita/Niqua, last name of whatever president is on the currency you pull out of your pocket)
JaShawn Hamilton

a kind of success

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 14:03:07 GMT

I thought that I had failed myself again, that my laziness would eat me up until class came and I would panic.

But here I am ready to print it, and it's longer than the other ones I wrote, so I am happy at myself.

Life is achingly good to me right now.

never better

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 23:31:21 GMT

NEVER BETTER
and in love again
never better